Seems like a theme lately. Reallllly trying to find balance out here in Colorado lately. I have been working extra days (trying to pay off a series of bad events) and really trying to just catch my breath. Most days, we have football from 6:00-8:30. I get home from work, get dinner, finish homework and out the door for practice. Taking call stinks... lack of sleep doesn't help matters. Computer is broken (will be out of commission for 4 days)... so I am here at work typing this. Things are frustrating... jobs are few and far between for Trafton and it is a very scary time in the world. The economy is awful and it seems like one thing after another keeps happening. UGH.... just need a breather and I don't see one in sight.
I struggle with finding time to work out, do creative things, bake and spend time with the boys.... like good QUALITY time with them. We are burned out with no relief.... so we are alive and healthy.... yeah. Just running on empty and trying to make time for the family. Discovering that 9 year old boys are mouthy and irritable... Mason sure is testing us lately. I try to spend time with them at bedtime:
I tuck them both in (which includes talking about the day.... tickling them.... rubbing their backs...and going over what time I leave in the morning.... and yes... "I WILL WAKE YOU UP" in the morning boys....). It is never enough. They still want me to stay longer, talk more, read another book. They want me home more.... I feel guilty....
It is tiring and frustrating but I know they need all the extras as well.... even though I can't wait to crawl into bed and hopefully sleep for 6 or so hours before I get up and do it all again.
I have so much respect for single mommies. I do not know how you do it. Truly.
Trying some new meds for my migraines... hopefully they will help.
Trying to create stuff for an upcoming craft fair that will hopefully make me some moolah for Christmas... or new tires... or a new computer... or a new air conditioning hose that just blew up on Sunday....or Mason's travel ball team that will cost us a pretty penny.
Tell me... does it ever end?
I am thankful for our good health, good schools, having a job I love, a roof over our head and a car that takes us to these places....
I miss my family and friends back home that I was always able to decompress with and have a glass of wine. I miss just being able to do that. I really need it right now... so now I am officially homesick. BLAH....
So that is my life these days.... I am still here and have lots to show you once my computer is back and working right again. Let's hope nothing is lost and it is cheap to fix. HA! I just am spreading myself soooo thin these days....too thin.
So I will be back.... soon I hope. Hope all is well out there with you all! :)